To the Mama with the healing spirit,
Being this human being takes an enormous amount of strength. Not everyone is fortunate enough to have this attribute, but not everyone wants it. It’s that something that often times keeps you up at night when all you really want is rest.
I have been this person long before I became a mother, and it sometimes leaves me wondering sometimes “why me?”
Since I was younger, it seems that my spirit has always attracted, and found ways to connect with that person with the broken heart, that person with the jaded ways, and that person who just wants to be loved, accepted and understood.
“Why do they seem to be drawn to me?”
“What is it about my demeanor, my personality, and my vibe that tells them that I’m the glue and the kind spirit that they need to talk them through their hurt?” “Why do I have to be the one to fix it, when I’m sometimes battling my own demons?”
I’m sure if you’re “that person” then you have somehow been guided here to read this open letter because you’ve often wondered the same, but you just couldn’t get the answer. Remember when I said that this attribute is fortunate for the ones who have it but not everyone wants it? Seems a little double sided doesn’t it? That’s because it is.
It can be an awesome and rewarding feeling knowing that somehow these people with these broken spirits are drawn to you like a moth to a flame because they crave your peace, your guidance, and the calming and positive spirit that you possess. But on the other end of the spectrum, this can sometimes be a burdening and lonely feeling for those who have not yet learned how to sift through their thoughts and feelings and understand the fact that everyone cannot be helped by you. Yes I know that you would like to, but what you’ve got to realize is that you are human too and your soul does get tired. Don’t be the one whom everyone can come to, and you give them your all until you have nothing left for yourself. Not all who are driven towards your light and your healing spirit have pure intentions. Some will come and deplete you of everything that you have and leave. Not all battles that are brought to you are yours to take on, and if you’ve felt this way before then you probably have already learned this lesson the hard way. Take inventory of those battles that are not yours to take on and those who come with pure intentions of seeking your light so that they can be a light for someone else.
So while you’re helping to mend another broken spirit, please don’t neglect the one from within.