To my strong willed child..

Dear strong willed child,

From the moment you were born I knew you would be an independent, persistent and sometimes stubborn little soul. You were conceived right after we lost our first baby, and from that point on I considered you my “rainbow baby”. While I was pregnant with you I had read all of the pregnancy books and magazines that I felt like I could possibly read. I felt like I was "prepared" (if there is a such thing) for your arrival. On December 3, 2014 you came into this world with the cord wrapped around your little neck twice, but you still came out kicking and screaming. You've been a strong little girl since the very beginning. Once bringing you home, I started feeling a sense of "now what?". I was clueless to motherhood and it seems like everything that I had read and tried to remember, went right out the window, but once I calmed myself and realized that God chose me to be your Mommy for a reason, I kind of eased right on into motherhood. During these 3, almost 4 years that you have been in my world, I have learned that whatever you see or hear once, you pick it up instantly, (so I learned very early on to watch what I say lol). I could tell early on that you had leadership qualities about yourself that I never even possessed, and you are very, very strong. I've heard many people say that "your first baby is normally your easiest" in terms of personality, demeanor and overall raising; but you, my dear, have broke the mold! You know how to test my patience and push my buttons like no one else can, but when you're not doing that, you are the complete opposite. You are a kind, compassionate and gentle hearted little girl. I've seen you lead your brother and sister in helping them learn all of the things that you already know, and I've seen you help them to learn things that they were sometimes reluctant to learn from me, but picked it up from you instantly. In the beginning, the only word that I could think of to describe your personality was stubborn, but now that I know better and I'm seeing more and more of those beautiful characteristics coming through, I know that you are definitely STRONG WILLED. I'm still amazed at some of the intelligent, well- versed things that come out of your mouth and I am absolutely convinced that my maternal grandmother is definitely shining through you my beautiful girl. It's been almost 16 years since she passed and I miss her everyday. I would have loved for her to be here to watch you and your brother and sister grow and I know for certain that she is now, and that she hasn't missed a minute. That sass and that quick wit that you have is a personality like no other and I know, for sure, that it is her.

I have no doubt that once you're older you will be a strong minded, self- disciplined, responsible individual. You will know what it means to be a leader and I have no doubt about you taking that role with pride. My prayer for you and your brother and sister is that you always stick together, stay close with each other and never let anyone come in between you. If you stay that way throughout your life, then there is no goal that if you want bad enough, you won't be able to reach, and Mommy will be there to cheer you on every step of the way. **If by now, it hasn't been made clear when I speak of my "strong willed child", I'll say that that precious little girl is my sweet and sassy Miss Marley Rayne.** Looking at you now, I can say without a doubt, that I picked the perfect name for you. I was wanting something eccentric and spiritual (in a sense) when it came to your name and once I stumbled upon the name Marley, it just stuck. I was instantly in love with this name and knew that there would have to be a special middle name to even match this special first name; Rayne came to my mind not too long after and it all made sense. Marley Rayne is gonna (yes, GONNA) make some great things happen; this, I am sure of!

#Strongwilledchild #Marley